Today is June 17th which makes my due date exactly one month away. That reality is surrounded by a multitude of emotions. The first is anxiety – both the good and the bad. Not bad in the sense that I don’t want it to happen, but in the sense of nerves. It is the unknown….when will it happen? How will it happen? How fast or slow will it go? Will everything be ok? All things that are completely out of my control and unable to be organized or planned. I also do not want to rush things along because I know that right now, this next month, is the last month that it will ever be just Jeff and I. I want to hold on to that. I am working hard on getting some things crossed off of my "list of things to do". I am such a list person -- I am also working on realizing that it is ok if there are still things on the list when the baby arrives.
Then there is the good sort of anxiousness – is our baby a boy or a girl? What and who will he or she look like? What will his or her name be? (That is a whole dilemma in itself) Overall, we just cannot wait to meet our little one and see our friends and family with him/her. I am very excited to become a mom but I think even more so, I am so very excited to watch Jeff as a daddy.It is already very apparent that he loves this little guy or gal so much. I just want to capture his facial expression when he sees his baby and store it forever. The good anxiousness greatly outweighs the part associated with nerves. We could not be happier right now.
Also, as most of you know – I had a baby shower this past weekend. It was a wonderful day that I was able to share with a lot of family and friends. I will post all about it soon. I want to be able to add pictures and need to get them from the camera to the computer first.
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